Life is not always fair. Or logical. Or pretty and nice.
This is my personal outlet for emotions that might otherwise be unleashed in an inappropriate manner.
Let it be known that "the BG" is my girlfriend whom I adore...the BabeGoddess, regardless of what I might be bitching about at any given moment within the walls of my blog.
"People can keep a journal to record their life, their thoughts, their happiness, the events of their families,
etc. They can also keep a journal of creative observations, their hopes, their ideas and dreams, as Leonardo da Vinci
did. He always had a notebook hanging from his belt to record his observations. I have one constantly in my
pocket and on my night table. We must be the source of good ideas and dreams for a better world. We are part of
evolution." -- ROBERT MULLER
"The defining characteristic of the literary vocation may be that those who
possess it experience the exercise of their craft as its own best reward, much superior to anything they might gain
from the fruits of their labors." from Letters to a Young Novelist by Mario Vargas Llosa
"The irony of life is not that you cannot forget but that you can." --Gertrude Atherton, 'Can Women Be Gentlemen'
Tuesday, December 31, 2002
ave been such a lazyass about blogging...i have however, fiinished up poolside and submitted it...cross some fingers for me puhlease...
i went to work yesterday and amazingly caught up everything that had accumulated on my desk during the week i was off...i then asked the bossman if i could have off on thursday, in addition to today and tomorrow since i have brought all this work home during the break and he said sure, so i am out of there until friday aftrer i return my son to the airport...
well...i have been here at work for the past 3 hours, on a day we are closed, entering surveys into DOS...what a pain in the ass...but it is better than trying to do it when the phone is ringing away...i turned it to do not disturb when i arrived...i might start taking advantage of that feature on a regular basis and just use the on another line excuse...
i have entered 85 records, and with just 10 more to go, i have decided those can wait and be entered with the straglers that filter in iver this next week...
the bossman saw me here and seemed pleasantly surprised, and the editor i am entering forms for was surprised and mentioned it...i made it clear that i was here doing crapola for him...
now i am off to saks, and then to pick up some passes for the new almodovar (sp?) movie that is on a sneak peak showing tonight...maybe some soup in between...maybe...
i am so glad to be out of there...i have been close to homicidal tendencies all week, much worse than ever before...i have to go in for a few hours on monday to do some work in the ever more antiquated DOS, but it wil be fine because i think only the bossman will be there...it will be good for him to see me there working when we are closed, and i think i have brought home enough stuff to merit thursday the second off without burning a vacation day...that will let me enjoy the last day of my son's visit...if i am posting less, it is only for the time i am off, but i will still be popping in and out of here...happy holidays!!
omigod...there is no way i am going to be ready to leave at 4 this afternoon...ih fucking well...whatever does not get done will just have to wait a week...i am already bringing home about 2 days of work over the week, and decided i will ask for the time to be comped so i am not burning vacation days too soon...makes sense enough to me and all i can do is ask the bossman...of course, i will be sure to ask in a manner that makes a yes answer easy...
one of the coworkers (not the dragon lady) who has been particularly condescending, patronizing, moody (the change!!), presumptive and plain out rude to me, was gently informed today that this is so by the BG...what a babe she is...gave her something to obsess about over the holidays...she asked the BG if i was upset about something...the BG said as a matter of fact i was sick of being treated like crap...she went on to site several examples, a few of which this coworker realized she was guilty...uh-huh...that's my grrl...
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godiva...is so evil...we received a 3 pound box yesterday from one of our vendors...points be damned...i am not sure i want to know how many points one piece is...
it's a regular hen party over my shoulder today...try getting data entered corectly with the noise level so early in the morning...fuckers...i think i will just read a little...
i went to barnes and noble this evening and used my secret santa gift card...i picked up a memoir by Alice Sebold called Lucky...i read the first chapter in the store and wanted to keep reading, so it was a keeper...i also got Good In Bed by Jennifer Weiner...the excerpt of that has had it on my wish list, so i figured having a gift certificate, why not?
dinner was a success...paul brought us some lovely gifts which we are to not open until christmas, and they could only have been decorated by a gay man...they are gorgeous...i might take some pics of them before i open them and use the image to make holiday cards for next year...i am feeling something is to be done to perpetuate the gift...they really are that gorgeous...
we had some cream cheese with sauces spread on crackers as an appetizer, one was a raspberry chipolte, and the other a praline mustard...i also made bbq chicken wings and pork tenderloin, mashed potatoes, grilled yellow squash, grilled sweet peppers...hmmm, what else...grilled portabello (ewww), and we had cream puffs for dessert...trey yumm all around...i got fixiins for martinis, and not a big enough jar of olives, but hey, i will know better next time...
the BG was stuck at work until 730, but joined us just as we were starting to eat...we had a good time visiting and celebrating the season...
having the sink and counter in does not mean everything that should be underneath or iin drawers, will be there...i could not find the beaters of the sauce brush, not could i find my electric knofe...makes me wonder what is still packed and where the box is...
oh, i made a loaf of white and a loaf of wheat, too...
the perfect day for a mental health day...i'm sooooooo siiiiiick...
we are having some friends in for dinner tonight, so i decided to play housewife today...there is grocery shopping to do, and i need to go to four different stores...i want meat and produce from whole foods, but i need to get rolls at the regular grocery, and then a few specialty items from spec's, the discount liquor/imported gourmet store, and then costco to pick up a few things...i can eliminate costco if necessary, perhaps...
i suppose if i am going to run around from place to place anyway, i might as well find (though not today) a butcher shop that i like...of course that might mean wading through a few i do not like, not an appealing thought at all...
our guests are arriving around 630 and the BG might not be home from work til 8 or so, which will suck...i am hoping she manages to get out regular time, which is 4ish...iit's all good...
the xmas party was the same old crap...good food, good company at our end of the table, and a general notion that we were not really with the rest of the people in our group...went for drinks after the party to a few differenty places, and was home by 230ish...
i had told the BG that i would go into work with her today to help her get her book out on time monday, but was regretting that as i woke...she got up and went in around 730, but i had told her to not expect me before 10 or so...the new part timer also said she would come in around 10 to help...we worked til around 2 and have been to lunch at pappasito's and shopping since...it is nearly 8 pm now, and i am feeling like i will crash as soon as i snuggle in for either some tv or maybe a movie...might as well choose tv, because i am pretty sure sleep is not far off...might end up just being a nap though, we shall see...
so today, after the dishwasher was run last night, the sink was empty!!! woo hoo...the kitchen is nearing normalcy...this morning i even made myself a cup of crushed ice from the refrigerator!!! what a day it is going to be!!
It is the christmas party tonight at fogo de chao which will simply be a splendid affair...my bf paul is going with me and i think the BG is bringing her sister...not sure if i feel like going back to the bosses house afterwards this year or not...it is a nice cap to the evening, but also it might be nice to do something different...go out or something...i think i will wait to decide which at the time...the past 2 years we have gone to his home after for buttery nipples and/or wine...the group doing this each year has been slightly different, there is a watch-the-drunks entertainment factor, but i also have no desire to witness the spectacle yet again...
i got up this morning and walked into the great room and what was i greeted by? dishes in the sink...what kinda shit is that...did i leave dishes in the sink? nononoooooooooooo...who else does that leave?
the point here, for any of you not in the know, is that we...have...a sink...woohoooooooo...it it s lovely thing, after more than 6 months with no kitchen...there is a sink...tonight, we even get to use the dishwasher and see that there are no leaks etc...it feels so much like christmas...
belated good morning...i just brewed a cup of black currant tea and i am feeling the zing already...just a leeeetle bit of caffeine...
and now, a song...it is all i can do to not cry at hearing it...i think it is now my alltime favorite xmas song...
That's what I Want For Christmas
When you said yesterday that it’s nearly Christmas
What did I want and I thought just love me
Love me; love me that’s what I want for Christmas
When I walk through a room let them see you need me
Walk through a room let them see you love me
Love me; love me that’s what I want for Christmas
Anyone can wish for all the trinkets on the window
Some can even buy the things they see
But the present that I want you’ll never find in any window
Bring me love and bring it just for me
When you come home at night take me in your arms and hold me
And kiss me and say you love me
Love me; love me that’s what I want for Christmas
yea!!! my secret santa was michelle and she has received her gift...when i got the info from jenna, i added her to my daily reads hopiong to get an idea for a gift she might like...i went shopping a few times hoping to get inspired...zip...nada...zilch...
wednesday before thanksgiving, i decided on the old stand by, and crocheted her a throw size afghan...that gave me a serious time crunch, but i made the deadline with a day to spare...glad you like it grrlfriend!!!
and the stockings were hung on the bookshelf with care...
who else would solve the dilemma of new walls not needing nails in them in all the practical stocking hanging places by hanging stockings on the bookshelf...they are jovely...i actually like them there...enough so that i have loaded the cd player up with some holiday music, mostly swing/50s fare, all new and hip, of course...but the cds i have liked best the past couple of holiday seasons...i still like my other assorted holiday cds; vanessa williams, boys II men, and barry manilow, as well as herb alpert and about 15 or so other various choices, but these all go over better with the BG, the least of what i would subject her to being the boys II men holiday cd, which her gentle mocking of truly does make it unbearable (though i still like it!!)...so the holiday tunes are jammin away...i got this morning the new starbucks holiday offering and like it a great deal...oh, i guess i could have put tony bennett in with this group as well, but only 5 fit...he can make the next go round...
all of my santas are unwrapped, though not yet grouped here and there...i also found the mini ornaments that seemed missing from my i foot desktop tree...i will take them, as well as a few santas, in to give the office, or at least my desk top, some holiday cheer...i saw a nice wreath at costco this weekend, and i might pick one up tomorrow to surprise the BG, though i do not know where or how i will hang it...that can be her decision, perhaps...i intended this weekend to hang some outside lights while she was away, but i could not find them...then when i considered it further, had no idea how they would get hung, not only my aversion to ladders, but is this house mine enough to take on such a project? with that thought, i stopped thinking about it all together, and was quite content to take on the inside and finish the unpacking of santas...
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bg was pleasantly surprised...tonight i came across the roll of wide red felt ribbon, maybe i will pick up a big bow and wrap the lamppost tomorrow...it will be a beginning anyway...i do not expect the BG to mind as she is focused this week on getting her magazine out and on getting the sink/cabinets/counter done in the kitchen before we have friends over on monday...
seems like another monday morning...though it is a little rainy today...i stopped this morning to get some cookies from la madeleine...this was neceesary, because paul's oven crapped out yesterday...
i went over to visit with him in recovery after our saturday night adventure, and we were to bake cookies to include in a few holiday packages i am sending out...i set the oven for preheating, and got the dough ready for some yummy chocolate chip pecan bar cookies...as i slid the pan iinto the oven, i noticed no blast of heat, so i bravely touched the oven rack...it was cold...damn...i covered the pan with foil and slid it into the fridge and went to find paul to deliver the bad news...hopefully he can find someone to fix it today as he has a dinner party tonight and needs his oven...he will likely go to eatzi's if he cannot get it fixed, a lovely save...
i then stopped by costco and picked up some pork chops for dinner...threw them on the grill when i got home, and also added a couple of halved apples...i am brilliant...a lovely meal...
well...i fiinished my secret santa project and will put it in the mail today...it's sitting on my desk right now, wanna see? hah...
the dl is back this morning and the volume is once again on, nothing new there...
the BG is going to her aunt's in dallas this weekend with her son, so it shall be a quiet weekend at home for me and the pooch...i think i might go shopping for a digital camera...maybe even get one!!
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what happens when you say anything below 45 is criminal? it is currently 38 degrees in houston...way too cold...usually there is a week of this cold nastiness in february...maybe the end of january...it is not supposed to be this cold in december...of course, i still am wearing my dyke sandals sans socks, though i have worn socks with them on occasion already this year...
it is thursday once again...this means nothing other than i hve to go weigh in this afternoon...last week was a reprieve because of the thanksgiving holiday, so it has been 2 weeks...the BG has decided to not go this week because she does not want to see that she has gained, but i want to see the damage whatever it might be because i need that recognition and accountability...of course i am only truly accountable to myself, but i need to know where i am at to know what is going on...yes, i have lost 27.6 pounds to this point, so i am doing something right, but i still have a ways to go...maybe a cup of tea this morning instead of hot chocolate? 4 points saved right there...i think i want to go to la madeleine this afternoon...
the dragon lady is out of the office today and tomorrow...what a treat...i was writing until 230 this morning and would have kept on except i caught a glimpse of the clock...had i not seen how little time there was between closing my eyes and hearing the alarm, i might still be at it as i was on a bit of a roll...i am going to change the work in progress section to several links i think...i need something to make it more functional for me...more use-able for when i am at work...
we just had 2 or 3 days of 70 degree weather which was such a delight...now it is 50 degrees again this morning...of course i just got a check in the mail from my dad for xmas with a note that detailed the 8 new inches of snow...i will certainly be happy with 50 degrees if snow is the alternative...
i also had an IM from my oldest yesterday...he has met a nice girl and is also employed...at the hilton...like his dad...when i met his father, 21 years ago, he was the night cleaner at the hilton...it is too involved for me to want to go into it here, but suffice it to say my son is the carbon of his father even though he has had nothing to do with him for 17+ years...ature all the way...so there is an unsettling irony for me that he will be working at the hilton in good ole Lake Placis, NY...maybe it will be good for him and lead to his nce dream of being a chef...he is a dishwasher and has been told he will be moved up to prep cook soon...in his world that means he will be coking...hah...one rude awakening on the way...ps...that is how his dad started there and it is also what he was told...it only gets better from here...
it will be a treat to go international...if i stay at this long enough i am sure it will happen...if nothing else i suppose i could mark myself again when i travel...hah...
yesterday i actually had work that kept me busy most of the day...i was very tempted to save some of it for today, but did not and now i am faced with stretching an hour's work for the day...not too big of a chore for me...perhaps i will get some work done on my river piece as well since the boss is not here this morning...like that matters...
i like going into the holiday season with a caught up in box...this means i have little to do, and time to strategize and plan my shopping outings and dinner parties...holiday to-do mental organization...the first hour of the day was so pleasant, but The Dragon Lady just swept through the office and her volume is on...sigh...she was out all of last week which was so nice, and now that she is back it is as if she was never gone...
my own rest from work was a nice long 4 and a half day weekend...not all of it necessarily nice, as somewhat already recounted here, but not at all bad either...my dw secret santa project is proceeding on schedule, and just past half done...i till be making the mail by 12/7 deadline...yippee...laundry was as done as i was going to get it last night at one with the last load in the washer...i will transfer it and fold this afternoon and then do the linen load to have it fully done...i also want to go through the rest of the holiday decorations boxes and might send some to my son for hhis tree...not sure about that yet...off to do some misc crap...more later...
you might think that being off since wednesday noon, i might have done laundry earlier rather than my usual blow it off on saturday because there is always sunday...this is why i am sitting here this evening...laundry needs to be done...there are still plenty of clothes to wear, i am sure, but i know if i do not do it this evening, it will be a chore to play catch up next weekend...not gonna do the linen load as there is nothing in it urgently needed...i think if i get one more load done, then the last one in the washer, i can then go to bed...maybe a little smut surfing will pass the time...
just sitting here minding my own business, enjoying the evening solitude, when all of a sudden...CRASH...one of the newer ornaments form last year bit the dust...it was a blown glass aligator from the discovery store...one i was fond enough of to replace when it broke last year...this means i am off to the mall tomorrow after work to see if another one exists...perhaps third time os the charm...
i finally jumped into the blogrolling boat...i am not sure if it will make anything easier, but it seems it might...i just need to figure out what it makes easier...i thought adding or changing a link was pretty easy already...
